FAIRLY UNFAIRLY FAIR

'That's not fair!', said the new born child born on the road I used to go to my college on, under a makeshift poor excuse for a home.

'That's not fair!', said another child who was born blind.

'That's not fair!', said the able and qualified employee who never got his chance to work in his/her dream company because the son of Mr. Rich & Famous showed the employee the nameplate outisde his house.

'That's not fair!', said the boy who every time when he tried to find love & understanding, failed and never got the chance to love & be loved.

"Everyone's right!! It is really not fair! What have they done to deserve such a start to their life or to not get a chance to change it? Unfair was supposed to mean wrong, a wrong is supposed to be corrected, right?" I asked.

"Child! I see where you come from. Afterall you get all such notions & concepts through my teachings only. But you fail to understand, never did  I say life is a bed of roses nor did I say life is fair, LIFE IS UNFAIR!! It may be unfair, but it is NOT wrong." He said the last statement with the same innocence of a child as he addresses me. I could only look back at Him with eyes of surprise. 

"So what is it that these people should blame their life on?"

"Destiny." He said.

"What?? That's it?!"

"Yup. Pretty much."

"You know, that's what my friends, relatives & parents too say. I couldn't believe it at times. I thought it has to be something else...."

"Can't help it buddy! That's the way it is & that's why everyone says it."

"But they need a chance...!!"

"And they will get it!" He said and then retracted, "Or maybe not...."

Yes, it's established- Life is not fair and hate it or hate it more, you cannot do anything about it. Accept it and make it a point to steal your chances because you don't always get them. It's destiny! Hah!! Talk about unpredictability!! You need to be lucky and then hard working, committed, determined and true. Just think about this, in your leisure, look back, at your life or others and just see how many questions are left unanswered. There is no answer to them. There just isn't! It was meant to happen is what you say. I find myself at a serious debate over this because I can't seem to disagree with it but I want to. I want to say it's not like I couldn't  do something, I wasn't equipped to do it.

Okay, maybe I am talking nonsense now but it's just that when I look at people and I see how certain things turn out to be for them, and at times when I happen to know them, I can't help but question as to how & why they are where they are despite not being responsible for it. Isn't it surprising that lives are judged and accused without even a full hearing? 

"Well, now can you tell all those people the answer they seek?", He asked.

"No", I said.

"Why?"

"No reason"

"What do you mean by that?"

"You answer all their unanswered questions first, my answer is much simpler", I said.

   

BACK AGAIN...ONE LAST TIME

A beautiful breezy ride back to college in the magic hour, a million brilliant thoughts in mind, amazing music playing in my ears and a resultant smile on my face, but something's remains to be done! What is it, I ask myself. The answer, you need to rush back to your room, switch on your laptop, log on and write a post!! It's the perfect time and it's now!

Yes, it's been a while, quite a while at that since I wrote last. Sometimes at a loss of words, sometimes at a loss of thought and sometimes just lost in myself, I had almost detached from writing, writing for myself, about what I feel. Guilt lay underneath but so many other things lay above it that I couldn't really go under all of them to do something about that guilt. But today, something just felt right, something like a calling and I knew this was when I address that guilt and get typing away, ferociously! And to type , well, I have sufficient!

As my Whatsapp status says, back here...one last time. Indeed, the time arrives! The final months at SIMC. Hmmm, the journey! I have always marveled at it's diversity and velocity! Time, come to think about it didn't really flow away too fast but yeah, it was swift! People incoming, outgoing, roaming, almost like telecom technologies, experiences so rapidly in succession that half a breath later you are not allowed to have the remaining half of it, lessons learnt, sometimes the hard way and two almost two years later, it is almost time now to say adieu. As I have always said to my friends and relatives, life now shall be divided into two broad parts- life pre-SIMC & life post-SIMC. Yes, it's been a major, major game changer, a literally life changing experience! Even after repeating this endlessly, I still feel it with the same intensity. Okay, I have to admit that by the time I will be leaving this place, I won't be missing it as much as I thought I would. It does become mundane, yes, even THIS sort of an atmosphere becomes mundane. But it will be the people.....the people who will be remembered, both for the great and worst times and I think it won't end here, it will go a longer way for at this time, at this juncture, it's not really like a school ending. Well it may or may not either, I don't know. No presumptions, no expectations. Many of my batchmates, maybe including me, would not really recommend this college to other aspirants for it's educational merits because as it stands, the image people have concocted of it and it's reality are far off from each other. But personally, I would probably recommend it for the larger than the classroom experience, the pan-Indian atmosphere, the experience of meeting a country full of people at one spot and live with them for two years and learn about them and eventually about you, I would recommend it for the atmosphere which can inspire, amaze, transform and teach. I would recommend it for the avenues it can open, to explore bigger avenues and I would recommend it for how tremendously exponentially people discover Cupid's existence and make you understand what they mean when they say when the world is actually a small place.  

And...for me, it's still not over yet! It probably never will.....