Sunday 23 March 2014

BACK & FORTH....



YEKE YEKE!! Mory Kante's amazing smash hit plays ecstatically in my ears & I can see Amitabh Bachchan on the yacht, heading towards Mandwa in his white suit on a sunny afternoon. looking heroically & almost awe-inspiringly towards the blue carpet of water spread vastly around him. Blue & white, the colours look resplendent. Oh, a small trivia: The song I talked about plays itself when Amitabh Bachchan is going to meet Kancha in Mandwa for the first time. It's this sleek montage of Amitabh getting ready & heading towards the island. From a chartered plane to the yacht & then on towards the island, his gaze is sharp, looking on determinedly. The song plays in the background, somehow brilliantly gelling with the visuals. Then a bomb is dropped on the yacht & boom! You think Amitabh's gone, or at least so thinks Kancha for a short while as Amitabh emerges from the ocean suddenly, his white more splendid, his persona even sexier. I bet Daniel Craig must have copiously taken down notes as a teenager then for that Casino Royale introduction he would do in the future. Now you know where it just might have come from! ;)   Although I can hardly decipher the meaning of whatever is being said, the Zulu language, don't know nothing about it. But that's the best part about music, right? You don't have to know anything about what someone is saying. Sometimes, the music just communicates with you. Some part of the composition just strikes you & you develop that bond with the song! 
I am just back from this fabulous semi-date with my best friend/semi girlfriend! We have caught up in person after quite some time, although we chat away to glory on Whatsapp almost everyday. It feels awesomely amazing & worth the week long wait & three cancelled dates. I am super fresh & energetic right now, although it's almost 11:30 in the night. I wanted more time, we needed more time, there was so much more to talk about! Anyways, we will catch up soon again. It's just her company that works wonders man! One time college colleagues, today we are still very much in touch despite all distances & work. Career concerns, crushes on girls & boys, amazing, silly & hilarious memories of college, problems, future aspirations, plans for fun, everything is laid out & tackled in quite detail.  I realise her value so much more now, never thought as much about it in college. I realise how much we have changed, except with each other that is. I think after graduation, we have got to know each other so much better than in those three years. It's like those three years were OCEANS ELEVEN & now its OCEANS TWELVE! She is pretty much the same, although a bright future looks at her from a distance. We both aspire to be these hotshots in the industry & then we will be giving interviews together telling the scribes the whole story of those foundation years in Hislop & then keeping touch, having stupid little quarrels in between but ultimately coming closer, planning all these glory days in lounges & cafes to then realising it. Hell yeah, we should make this happen, just the thought of it actually happening! Oh yeah!! There's a blockbuster story right there!
I am having this surge & urge to write, something I haven't experienced in a while now! This is good, like GOOD! This is how it happens every time it does, of the 30 blogs I wrote, some of the best (strictly personally speaking) have come from this kind of spontaneous surge & urge! There was this gloomy cloud in between over me, nothing felt like to write, to talk about. It was like yeah-so-what's-there-to-talk-about-it kinda thing happening with me.  I didn't care to explore the reasons behind it for the plain reason that it's fruitless. I have been waiting for just some things to happen, thinking that they will make things very different but maybe it's not only about those things.  Maybe it's just that I need to hang on a bit more & things will just fall into place. Too much contemplation, too much running around exploring things, probably that is not what I need right now. I need a calm, focused & steady approach. I am at home, and it already, like every time feels like bliss. College is just on the very brink of ending, yes it has been quite the journey I wanted! Seen so much, heard so much & learnt so much more, it's the perfect time to move ahead now. Which is why I guess I am not too sad at the prospect of leaving it now. Of course I can't be completely emotionally detached & say I won't remember it. It will be one of the deepest memories I'll ever have. And it will be the people at certain points of time, the sights & the experiences that will remain. But this departure doesn't seem heartbreaking, it doesn't. It seems logical. it seems natural. A naive, slightly clueless, dependent boy has given way to a not-as-naive, purposeful, mature-er, more open minded and stronger boy. 
On an ending note, I was seeing KOI MIL GAYA in the afternoon and nostalgia crept in wide & fast as I remembered seeing the first look of the movie as an amusing 14 year old. Hrithik Roshan was Krish for me right from Kaho Na Pyar Hai & then I see the first look of this movie, Hrithik sitting on some rocks, sobbing, an evening set up, looking as if something's wrong with him mentally & then the movie caption. It might be noted here that this scene was NOT a part of the movie! It was strictly promotional. And I was like, why is he acting like that? This is no hero! Make him the hero again! I was dead sure this film was gonna flop, of course it would, look at how they are showing Hrithik! Sweet teenage naivety! How wrong was I! The film not only truly heralded the Indian sci-fi genre but now in hindsight, but is the best of the trilogy. I think the Krish series doesn't have the simplicity of Koi Mil Gaya. There is some cinematic brilliance in the latter, which translated into technical in the former & the attention shifted from story to special effects. Rohit Mehra was the societal reject who any reject in any degree identified with, not to forget those who were not the rejects as well. We need to abolish this concept of the reject, it is very narrow minded of us. Look at Michael Jackson! The King Of Pop, a pioneer, a genius, a charitable, soft spoken, shy eccentric( not offensively but naturally), controversial, vulnerable & a bit indecisive. With literally the whole world at his feet for two decades, he was suddenly the biggest reject there ever was! And what did that result in? Yup, death! His rejection led to his death! The drugs were just a catalyst. Remember, you only despise someone until you become that someone!
Did I say something about an ending note? Uh.....well....yeah...it ends here.             

Monday 17 March 2014

SCATTERED....

I missed this. On the street at 7 pm in the evening and there is pin drop silence, if you ever wanted to hear what silence sounds like, you could do it in that instant. Oh yes, this street is super familiar as well, it is the street I have traveled on for so many years. Hell yeah, everything's awesome. I am home!! Although I have been in & out if this awesome city umpteen times in the last two years, the breaks have not been like long enough. Five-six days at the most. Sometimes a week. But this time it's longer, almost two weeks. The next time, it will be eternal. Yup, college is done, and the Symbiosis chapter ends very soon.
I hear various people in my class utter varying thoughts about it. Some can't believe it's ending, some are neutral to it & some are happy as hell. Me? I am a mixture of the three in varying degrees, the first one being the minutest for I sure can believe it's ending! I have become quite neutral to it considering my last two semesters were largely a mixed bag, although in hindsight, they were not what I wanted them to be and I am happy as hell about the journey, that has been covered and what remains to be covered. I am happy to have come a long way from what I used to be, I am surprisingly happy to have committed the mistakes I committed. I think we sometimes unnecessarily lament over a time that is about to end, like how some of my friends are sad about leaving college. I mean of course it is indeed sad to be doing that but seriously, this is THE time to do it! We will always be learning something everyday, even when we go from here.
Oh sorry, I drifted away from what I was talking about. But frankly, I am in one of my most occupied phases right now! A million thoughts & subsequent actions occupy my mind right now. I am restless. I have my eye and my heart on this one job opportunity that has come my way and I really want it to happen and work out for me! I want to party hard & celebrate getting that job & dance the night away at some lounge to awesome music. I want to party so bad! I am so blah about the notion of falling in love considering it never seems to work out & I am thinking about the scenario some 5-6 years later where I'll be meeting up this girl found for me by someone & I'll eventually have an arranged marriage! Not bad but not what I want either. But who cares right now? I am coming to terms with the fact that I looked and felt miserable for a large part of my third & fourth semester & that I was way below my level of performance. Of course I'll be setting that straight. I am making up these surreal plans with some of the coolest people in my life about the future & how I want to make things happen. I have so much to talk but I can't see anyone willing to listen!!
Phew!! It's exhausting & at the end of it, wow, I have managed quite a random post!I don't think I should write any further as of now, because I don't know what will come next! Art imitating life! Okay that's it!!